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writer’s block

15 Aug

Spiteful words can hurt your feelings, but silence breaks your heart.”
– C.S Lewis

This blog is going to suck, as the title may have tipped you off. I’m feeling uninspired, a bit annoyed and just incredibly frustrated with myself. I haven’t written a poem in almost 3 months, at least not a decent one, every time I start to write any sort of prose it’s stupid and cliche, and just plain bad. Blogs are the only thing I’ve been writing, other than an all too personal letter that I just sent off without thinking twice (the letter is the cause of the frustration with myself). But writers, since some of you reading this must be writers, you know that awful feeling that is writer’s block.
To me, it’s like being sick. Due to the fact that I have a terrible immune system, I’m sick an awful lot, and it’s hell. I get chills, then I’m sweaty and hot and clammy and nasty. I have headaches, throat aches that make me want to cry and awful chest coughs that last far too long and disrupt any class I’m in at the time. Oh, and I get a runny nose. Writer’s block for me is quite similar. I start out at nice temperature, then things slowly get frostier and then things get warmer too fast and then I start tossing and turning, or in the writing sense, pressing the delete button, typing, delete, type. Symptoms of writer’s block also include headaches, but the sore throat comes in the form of wrist cramps, the chest cough a pinky that always locks up after being used for typing for too long. And the runny, gooey snot nose comes in the form of self-hatred and constant bullying from the voices in my head. (Some of them yell at me in German.)
Now, if that poorly executed metaphor didn’t tip you off to the fact that I’m creatively stifled, I don’t know what will. Photography hasn’t grasped my interest enough lately, not to mention my camera sucks/ is broken. Prose really isn’t working out too well, and I can’t organize my feelings to write a poem. But apparently my writer’s block could be put on hold to write a stupid letter. Stupid letter. gr. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.



i post a blog and solar powered lava lamps

27 Jan

Yes indeed, I post a blog, me from 15 seconds ago. Oh, I was naive and stupid 15 seconds ago. Oh, jeez, i am not making any sense. Again. Moving on…

I have been working on mid-terms and school stuff for the past few days, but not like I’m breaking my back for it or anything. I mean, really, me, try hard in school? That’s on par with military intelligence for an oxymoron. I am writing a blog because I, again, don’t feel like working on my essay, but this blogging will have to end at some point so I WILL work on it.
Anywho, I think I will get through my mid-terms with ease and this essay will hopefully be finished by 7 p.m. tomorrow. If it isn’t, you will all have permission to bug me on Skype at the wee hours of the morning.
Anyways, last night I organized my bio binder so everything was all in order and whatnot and then outlined my English mid-term essays while watching Mike Lombardo on Blogtv. I should be feeling really overwhelmed, considering I have four mid-term exams tomorrow and a paper due Friday that I have almost nothing done on, and I have show crew, but, uh, i don’t. Yet.  Anywho, when I get all of my work done, Friday night I’m going to go to the gym, come home, clean the bathroom and then shower. After I do this, probably pretty nauseous (due to the bathroom cleaning) I will begin watching the Saw movies. Saturday I will finish watching the series, and probably move onto Battlestar Galactica.
I may have mentioned this already this week, but I had a really good time talking to Mercedes (holwcowitsmer 0n twitter) on Blogtv Monday (?) and taking to Mike Lombardo last night on Skype.

I hope you all are having a mid-term/exam free week.



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Credit where credit is due: Photo by Matthew Stewart

i need to do better in school

26 Oct


Over the past week or so, i’ve been realizing how much I’ve been slacking in school and how badly I’m doing. Granted, getting 80s and up isn’t really too terrible considering I have 11 classes, but even though I have a large quantity of classes, I don’t have the largest quantity of work. I’m not saying that I don’t have any work, I do have a fair amount, but i don’t really think that I’m putting the effort into the work that I should be. Here’s my self evaluation for my classes:

Global: Good. I do all the homework, except for one assignment and the tests and quizzes I haven’t gotten below an 85.  Self-effort grade: A-

P.E- puh-lease.

Bio- good. I do the homework and I study, but I could pay attention more and study harder. Self effort grade: B+

Global Issues: A really challenging class that I could put much more effort in if I didn’t doubt my abilities so much. Self effort grade: B-

Video Production- good. self effort grade: A-

Studio Art: AHHHHHHHHH! Self effort grade- B+

Math- I do most of the homework and I do alright on quizzes and tests. Self effort grade: B-

English- Started out really bad and then I think I got better. I tried more with what we recently started doing. Self Effort Grade: B+

French: alright. self effort grade: B+

Creative Writing: I will not grade myself on this. This is something I do only for me. A teacher giving me their opinion and guidance is just a helpful tool, I honestly do not consider this to be a class-like thing, due to the fact that it’s so personal to me.

Broadcast Journalism- too little work done to tell.

That’s all for today. Sorry this blog isn’t wannabe witty like the others.